Today, I just feel a little…dull. My job is an 8 to 5 office job in real estate. To be honest, it’s not really a passion of mine, but girl’s got to pay her bills. Don’t get me wrong, I’m extremely grateful for my job, especially this one because it allowed me to quit my toxic job. I appreciate that I’m able to have weekends off and my evenings free.
It’s just…what an existence. Having to work at a job I don’t have any interest in, day in and day out, for a paycheck. The majority of people are in the same position and I know I’m lucky because mine is in an office. I’m sitting in an air controlled environment, pretty cushy. I know not everyone is as lucky, but gosh, what a way the system is set up.
Sometimes I wonder, is this all that there is? Working until you can hit retirement, and then live your life out in your late 60s, if you’re lucky enough to live off your retirement/savings. Even if you’re able to, you’re past your prime and may not be able to travel or do certain activities you wanted to do. Seems like an unfulfilling existence.
Now, don’t think I’m just wallowing in misery. I do try and do things that bring me joy. I like filming and editing my Youtube videos. It’s a hobby, but could eventually turn into a part-time job (please subscribe to support your girl 😅), but it is definitely a fun past time. I also try to enjoy my weekends as much as I can, even if it’s just staying in and watching Youtube videos with my cat on my lap.
I’m also doing some doodles and trying to learn the ins and outs of a drawing program, so maybe I can sell some of my little doodles.
I guess my solution to my drab office week is to be as artsy and creative as possible during my off time. If I could have a dream job…it would definitely be something within social media.
Something like Youtube and podcasting. I love talking and keeping up with various current events, so maybe like a “news” podcast, but more pop culture news, and tidbits of interesting stuff like people discovering a new mummy tomb. I guess the title would be influencer/podcaster.
Though the term “influencer” comes with a huge stereotype, I’ve seen lots of down to earth, honest influencers, and yes, they sell products, but they also share their lives and have stayed pretty transparent with their viewers. That’s want I want to be like, more real and still myself. Not the stereotypical “LA influencer” that we see being portrayed all across Instagram. There are some good ones out there, I promise 😅
For now, I will continue doing my hobbies and see if one day I can leave the 8 to 5 torture. And listen, this is just me not liking my job because I’m not interested in it. There isn’t anything wrong with an 8 to 5 if you like it. We’re all into different fields, so just because I don’t like it, doesn’t mean there aren’t people out there who absolutely love their office jobs.
I guess this post was a little scattered, but my general idea is that I wish we could all pursue our actual passions rather than have to focus on a paycheck. But, we can still take a moment to enjoy what we like doing and maybe even be able to pursue it as a career and have that “it feels like I’m not even going to work” type of job.
Let me know what your thoughts are!